I know that I'm not the first one to write about this subject, but I wanted to add my story to the other success stories of spanking away an addiction.
I've been a smoker now for 24 years.
More than 1/2 of my life.
I've tried and failed to stop.
And I've tried and succeeded in stopping........
only to give in and start again.
Nicotine is a vicious bitch.
She pretended to be my friend, but ended up controlling me.
She was always there for me, when I was stressed out, or bored, or talking on the phone, or driving in my car.
She always accompanied me when I was having coffee, or after a meal, and yeah, she was even there for me after sex.
I felt like I couldn't live without her.
Everyone in my life that came and went always told me that she was no good for me, and that I deserved better.
But I guess I couldn't see it.
She was a comfort to me anytime I needed her.
She was the one constant in my life.
And the worst part?
The whole time that I was comforted by her, and depended on her, she was trying to kill me.
I think I knew that all along, but just shut my eyes to it.
I have a goal.
I want to be completely free of nicotine by my 39th birthday.
And it's getting closer and closer.
There had never been any consequences before......except that people were disappointed in me, but I guess I just got used to people being disappointed in me, and that wasn't motivation anymore.
But this time I have motivation.
My hubby is spanking away my addiction.
And it's working!
He spanks me when I feel weak, like I want to give up.
He spanks me when I start feeling sorry for myself.
He spanks me when I start getting bitchy.
He spanks me as a reminder of why I don't want to smoke anymore.
And he spanks me as he tells me how proud he is of me and cheers me on with encouragement.
So, there has been a lot of spanking going on around here lately.
As a matter of fact, I can hardly sit right now because of the spanking I got this morning.
Every day it's getting a little bit easier. And when it's not so easy, hubby is there, armed with the hairbrush and a tube of Arnica Gel to get me through.
I'm really gonna make it this time :)
But, as many times over the last 24 years as I've stopped and started again, I do believe that being a smoker is a lot like being an alcoholic.
I can never have just one cigarette again, because I love it so much that I won't be able to stop.
I'm going to need periodic "reminders" to not give in at a moment of weakness or because of a stressful event for a long time to come.
And I feel really safe and confident right now because I know that my hubby will be there for me when I need that strength.
I'm really gonna make it this time.......
~PRINCESS XOXO
How inspiring Princess!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are truly a strong princess. I'm right there with you cheering you on!
You can do it, You can do it, You can do it :)
#TEAM PRINCESS#
Mandy May <3
You know.. I used to drink.. dabbled in drugs... smoked.. and smoking was by far the hardest to kick! I quit 9 years ago after smoking for over 20 years, and if it were a cheaper habit these days I might pick it back up sometimes!
ReplyDeleteHoping you can kick her in the "butt"!! ;o)
You go girl! I'll jump on the team bandwagon !!
ReplyDeleteGood luck, Princess! I absolutely detest cigs. and the smell of smoke...so glad you're quitting:)!
ReplyDeleteLove and hugs,
Kitty
Oh Princess. Well done and keep it up :)
ReplyDeleteI know how hard it is to stop. I still smoke although I really want to give up too. I'm finding it very very difficult and have so far been unsuccessful :(
I'm going to be really interested to read more of how this is working for you. I'm trying to imagine myself being spanked to help me stop smoking......... I have visions of what excuses I'd have to make to others about why I can't sit down lol!!
Dee x
Mandy May~ Thanks for the support:)
ReplyDeleteMikki~That's crazy that smoking is harder to quit than drugs, but I believe it! So glad you were able to quit all 3 though! Very srong girl!!
Tiffany~ Thank you Tiffany:) I will take all the support I can get! :)
Kitty~ You are right, but the strange part is that I never noticed how bad it smelled until I quit. Now when I'm walking by people, say, in a store... I can actually smell who is a smoker and who isn't!
Dee~ I'm with you girl! I know how hard it is. The best advice I can give is;
1. you have to be ready to quit and you have to do it for you, not for anyone else.
2.Pick a day to quit, start first thing in the morning and throw away all lighters, ashtrays etc. the night before.
3.Get a box of 4mg nicorette gum and chew at least 10 pieces a day to get you through the first few days which are the hardest.
4.Don't be afraid to ask your man for "help" before you get to the point of no return. He won't be able to read your mind, so you will have to be very honest with him and yourself.
I wish you much luck Dee :)
~Princess xoxo
Good for you Princess! That must be really hard work. I've quit a few things in life but none as addictive as smoking. I'm sure you are going to make it.
ReplyDeletegood luck wishing you all teh best and dont ya just love husbands and their motivational skills ;) hehehehe good on ya girl keep it up :) love and big hugs kiwi xxx
ReplyDeleteHey :) Wondering how you're doing with this, hoping it's going well and you're still able to sit comfortably :)
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to say (I've not given up yet but I've been reading about giving up lol!) that I've read that when all the toxins leave your system, this is when you start to crave sugary things (hence why so many can have weight gain after stopping?) Something to do with blood sugar levels dropping, so..... the advice I've read was to have a glass of pure fruit juice every 3-4hrs to replace lost sugar levels until the sugar craving subsides.
Don't know if it works (if I give up I will test this theory lol, sorry...... did I say 'if'??...... I meant 'when', of course:)but I figure it can't hurt to try.
Dee x
Dee~ Good luck with quitting! I am a smoker too and my husband always says I need to quit but he's never actually said it would be punishble and I hope he doesn't anytime soon. I am a lot like you in that it's my BFF sometimes :-)
ReplyDeleteI'm really proud of you for having the courage and desire to stop! And Kudos to your HOH for stepping it up and helping you!
Susie~ Thank you, and yes it is hard but I really want this.
ReplyDeleteKiwi~ Yes husbands do have their wonderful ways:)
Dee~ Interesting theory.......If I start getting sugar cravings I will definitely try the juice, but so far so good on that one. I just posted my follow up to this a few minutes ago, to let everyone know how hard it has been.
LilGirl~ Thanks so much for your comment. I absolutely love smoking, but I have asthma and get bronchitis at least once a year, so I was running out of options and excuses as to why I can't quit.
And yeah my hubby has been great through all of this. He's a trooper, because I sure wouldn't want that job!!